Growing up, I enjoyed writing short stories, scripts, songs and more. Unfortunately, life happened. I lost friends and family and my desire to write started to dwindle. The words would try to come up, but they didn't spark the way they used to. I share this because there may be some of you who have been there. You may have been writing a lot at one point and then all of a sudden you stopped. Or you could have had a desire to write a book, but you didn't know where to start. I understand fully because I was there.
How To Get Back On Track?
When I was writing for fun, I was not writing for God. I was writing what I wanted to. So when life started to get messy I had to give it to God for real, for real. I wasn't able to do it on my own. When I did, I started to see my interest be re-ignited again. The desire I had to write started to just flow through me with ease. I couldn't believe it. Not only did writing come back up, but I was even writing poetry again. For those who knew me in my youth, know that I loved writing poetry. God brought that love right back to life. It was in this space of getting to know God and being re-introduced to Him that I got to re-open gifts that I thought were gone.
It didn't stop there. As I started to see my desire to write come back to me, I also saw how I was running away from it at the same time. Now you may ask, why was I running? Honestly, I don't know. I know a lot of how I felt about myself may have had a lot to do with how I saw myself as a writer. The truth is I didn't see myself as worthy of being a write or an author. I didn't think that I was good enough to write or book or even know how to start it. I didn't think that if I tried to do it that anyone would even read it. I thought it was just in my head about me wanting to write again. Then I started to get visions of me writing and I knew that God was speaking. So after I stopped trying to run from the gifts God had given me. I was able to embrace them. I was able to start creating again.
I share this because there may be someone who is reading this who needs to understand that God knows in advance who He has called and who will come back to Him. So don't be shocked when you start to see gifts from your youth come back to the surface. It's God's reminders that He has not forgotten about what he has placed inside of you. He loves you dearly and wants to help you to get to a place where you can love Him and yourself too.