He Gave Them Joy

When I looked back to a year ago, I can see many different parts of my life that I can't ignore. Some of those parts were made up from decisions that I had made while others were made up from decisions that others were placing on me. So before this summer came into view I made a conscious effort. I didn't wnat to repeat any songs that I had played last summer. I didn't wnat to be dipping and dabbing in emotions or could've, would've should've. Instead, I wanted to gracefully see the impact that the Lord was doing in my life and hold on to the shifts and changes that were taking place.

You see it was easy to be upset when I needed a place to stay with my three children. It was easy for me to think that nothing was working for me even through grace and favor had found me in a peculiar situation. Even when help didn't come in the way that I wanted it to, I was able to see how well life was moving for me through measures that were seen as uncommon. I sought help from people who discredited me because I felt that they could provide an opportunity. Unfortunately, that came as a no and it felt like a burden was being added to my life.

Yet, when I saw the smile on my children's faces, all I could do was smile back. They had not allowed the, "no" to make them feel less than. They didn't allow promises of being with mommy that seemed to be weighed in the balance of life circumstances remove the joy that they felt. They just played and continued on like they didn't have a care in the world. They received joy and no bitterness came near them.

How is it when I was faced with being homeless and having to take my children on a journey I wasn't ready for were they so able to trust that everything was going to be okay. I thank God for the blood. Although it hurt to not get help when I was seeking it from a certain individual. God still placed people right in my life who were more than able to help me. God performed miracles when He provided housing for me during another season where it seemed to be impossible.

And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7

Although there were moments of doubt that wanted to creep in, the Lord continues to remind me that miracles do happen. The Lord is still a promises keeping God that performs miracles even now.